TweetRecently, i was released from my chastity. As per usual, it seems, i was not allowed to actually cum, it has been years, but to edge—repeatedly. i was not really required to film it all, but i decided to take some pics anyway, since they would lend themselves to my blog,

i opted for a sexy tee and skirt. Figured it must be sexy, since it said so right on the front of my tee. Love this combo for getting kinky. i decided to get myself worked up as much as possible, i figured i needed it, so i made sure that i my nails were very long and dark. That combination of color and sexy girly length seems to always get me going.

And so here it is. at left, what is left of my stick. It seems like over the years, mostly due to the fact that Goddess N kept me locked up for the better part of eight years (lol) that it take more than just a little cajoling to get it hard and suitable for stroking

But getting all dolled up sure helps.    So here i am, ready, certainly willing, and now able, so it seems, to seriously stroke myself over and over–and over again to not orgasm. Thanks, Goddess

In the meantime, since i have taken some pics of my finally hardened stick, and being the slut that i am (or that Goddess N demands that i be), i might just as well share a few. But y’all will have to find my tumblr spot to see those.

TweetIt’s St. Patty’s  I want to wish all a happy day of reveling and whatever else happens after drinking green beer. I wan to give a Shout Out to all my readers of my blog as well as my followers on twitter. I, of course, have to specifically, and specially Wish a Happy St. Patrick’s to my Goddess Erotic Nikki!

As you may recall, I am actually for real part Irish and so I always try to mark the day with some type of Irish gallery.

So hee I am as a little sissy Leprechaun, standing next to my pot o’ Gold wish all a Happy Day. Hopefully Goddess Nikki will approve of my St. Pat’s outfit. Always have to keep my Goddess entertained and/or amused. lol  Therefore, also as always, at some point i find it necessary to start stripping off my clothes.

After all, it is Titty Tuesday, you know. Not sure if you can see my shamrocks. No, not those shamrocks. The ones on my bra, and even on my panties. But get not, i will post a few picks of my panties and shamrocks at my tumblr spot.

TweetWishing all my Readers here and followers on twitter a Happy Valentine’s Day

Also want to wish a Happy Valentine’s Day to a Very Special Valentine, Goddess Nikki. Hope everyone is getting to spend the day with their Valentine. Isn’t it convenient that Valentine’s Day falls on a Saturday this year, so at least some of you have the day off.

In the meantime this day for me was about making sure that i show my appreciation for Goddess Nikki by sending Her some Valentine tributes!  I spent the last few weeks getting ready for the day, and a few days back, i assembled all the goodies i had bought and boxed them up to send to Her.

Then i awaited aHer response, after my package arrived. i know Her pretty well, and She has a Wish List, lol, and between the two i can usually figure out how to approach the day. This time i paid special attention to Her feet, since that’s originally how i fell under Her spell. 

Above are the things this sissy subbie sent her Goddess. Wrapped and unwrapped  Probably a little hdd to see everything. But there was a nice foot care device to help keep Goddess Nikki’s feet as soft and smooth as they always have been. A few anklets, some foot care lotion , which came in a bottle shaped like a foot. And a pillow, likewise shaped in similar fashion, along with some nail polishes. Couldn’t forget the candy although i never send much of that as my Goddess is always watching Her figure. Fortunately my Goddess liked my effort. That is always the main ingredient.

TweetCertainly had a good time edging this past week. Learned a little about where i am at this point in my training and my life. Not all of it good, but the eventual evolution of a true sissy subbie. And of course i need this and i am happy with the changes that Goddess Nikki has effected in me. They are necessary and deserved.

As always i felt a need to thank my Goddess and by sending Her something to let Her know that i was grateful for Her guidance in test matters. i found something that i could send through Amazon.  i wanted to do this so that krissy could publicly thank Her for my release.   

So when i sent Her a tribute, i enclosed the card at right, to Thank Her in such a way as there could be no doubt as to what i was thanking Her for. She got a little kick out of the surprise and what the card said, so She texted me a pic of the card,

So again, Thank You so much Goddess for changing my thinking. Making me realize that cuming for one like me is for only special occasions, if at all.  Even if all this eventually means that i am less able–without the aid of a plug in me. Even if it means that in the end (no pun intended) cumin anally is all i know.

TweetThanks to the awesomeness of Goddess Nikki i have been allowed to touch myself for the first time in a long time. It has been a lot of fun and much needed. It has also been a learning and enlightening experience as well! It is obviously something all those aspire to  do. Stroke. lol And i certainly had enough time and chances to have fun as well as remember what i was missing.That may be the engine that drives the chastity train. Those learned in these endeavors will understand what i mean.

But it was also a learning experience. i had no idea how much all of this has taken a toll on my normal ability to get hard as i used to nor be able to stroke easily without cumin. i suppose d that is the effect intended by a Domme. Since i didn’t have to film anything this time i could just stroke whenever. But as i’ve already said, it took, as Bailey Jay once put it, getting all dolled up to jerk off. lol Buti was dress the past week already, so i really needed to step it up a notch to get the same effect. Here is the result

Look at me! Could i get any more sissified than a ruffled dress? With the cute flower on the top. Very cute.Matching blue shoes. Even my wig is blue.

i love to totally match everything i am wearing. And my make-up here is perfect. dIt used to be that nail polishes other than reds, pink, and silver tones were the only things easy to find. But now days anything goes so the blue nail polish is easy. But that’s not enough for this gal.

Take a look at my sexy feet (right) and check out my gorgeous toes with my sexy long painted toenails. Hands match, of course. my face was a little harder with the blue lips, but thanks to Goddess N i found a lip collections with many of the more uncommon colors. Colors that actually go on bright and bold for once.

Eventually, i stripped off my skirt and top to show off my cami and a cute pair of matching shear thong panties. Awesome, and a turn on all the way down to my toes, This re-cede and trained sissy I can now perhaps be stroke myself to a delightful almost O

The whole experience left feeling a little better, but a little worried about the direction my sexual identity is taking. Left me wondering if eventually i will be capable of too much, craving instead that my hole be filed. Didn’t realize where all of this could lead. All at the whim and for the amusement of Goddess Nikki. Thank You Goddess. Don’t forget my tumblr spot for more.

TweetWell it’s a new day and there’s an edge to it. In fact, two. One morning session of edging and one at night, seems like the best way to do my edging. If you re following along with my sissy story, you already know that Goddess Nikki told me to edge twice daily. When i had some problems doing that, i realized that i now needed to be dressed properly to create the right mood to be able to edge. 

Today, this is my outfit. Tiny shear bra and panty set that doesn’t leave much to the imagination. lol Perfect for a slut like me.

Although Goddess N said i didn’t have to bother to film any of it, i decided to take a few shots along the way, whenever the mood struck. It doesn’t take away from things much, and, being the slut that i’ve become, i found that humiliating myself in front of the camera actually adds to the mood. It is a complete turn on to to humiliate myself for Goddess Nikki’s amusement.

So here i am, the desperate sissy slut of Goddess Nikki Ashton, now getting hard enough to do my edging!

TweetLast week during a phone call Goddess Nikki sensed, i guess by our conversation, that something more was needed. So She decided that i should be uncaged, and even that i should stroke!  It’s been quite a long time since i have been allowed to have an O. Over 300 long days., But i’m still not having one because the purpose of this release was to edge my self just short of “rubbing one out” as Goddess Nikki once put it. That is really tough to do, especially after being caged all this time. But i am willing to try my hardest to amuse Her. lol  What makes it more exciting is that She said She wanted me to edge twice daily for a week! Lastly, She added that i should start that very night.

i think Goddess Nikki was attempting to do a couple of things with my unlocking. First, i think She figured it would really get me hot and inspired, if you know what i mean. But i also think She thought i needed it. Physically and mentally. The reason i say this, is that She said i didn’t have to film any of it. So  set out immediately. To please Her, of course. lol  It seemed so perfect. iThere i was talking to Her on the phone, listening to Her melodic voice late at night. So as soon as our phone conversation was concluded, i could go  to bed and masturbate!! Couldn’t wait.

Later that night,  i tried my hand, so to speak, at pleasuring myself for the first time in months. Although i felt good, and free, i was surprised that i was not able to get instantly hard as a rock and do my edging. Perhaps being caged for the 325 days had something to do with it. lol Parenthetically, i’m sure that my medical problems contributed. But obviously She has worked to change me and my thinking.  Goddess N, has said that i should learn to cum anally. Nitrilla actually started to train me to do that. During our cams, after She had satisfied herself after watch me entertain her, She would allow me o cum in that fashion, if i could. i believe now, that when one learns to cum that way, one’s male parts to do operate correctly. It seems that my stick doesn’t think it has to get hard any more to cum!

i decided that one problem too, is that i have also been trained to think, at some level that i can only kobe sexual when i am thinking, acting, and dressing as a woman. So the next morning, i decided to get all dolled up and…

Here’s what i decided to wear in an attempt to create exactly the right mood. This bra and panty set is awesome for feeling like a sexy girl, It’s sheer, lacy, and fuck me red. i love red and i love the lazy see-thru effect of the bra. As you can see, i am even wearing some jewelry. Long dangly earrings, and i nice matching necklace.

At this point, i’m feeling all girly. After a short time i’m feeling sexy and heating up.

Looks like i’m ready to masturbate, don’t you think?  Now that’s the krissy, i know and love! i’m really feeling good, by this time. Goddess N would rather i be looking feminine and sexy if i am going to stroke, or do anything sexual for that matter anyway. 

So i’m ready to fulfill my mandate to masturbate—but to cum—all for the amusement of my Goddess. If one looks closely, my stick can be seen in my little lace thong panties. Ready and waiting, and i can now hardly wait. Especially since i am not required to do anything special. i will probably take a few pics, since i am dressed to thrill, if its not too inconvenient. If i do i will post a few at my tumblr spot.

TweetI want to wish a Happy New Year to my readers here, my almost 900 followers on twitter, and, of course, Goddess Nikki Ashton. Last year was mostly spent for me recuperating from my medical problems. So perhaps, for me, i’m glad to put past year behind me, but at the same time the year was good for me and my recovery. It’s my new, more spiritual way of looking at things, And as any intelligent person realizes, the universe returns the energy one give off. So i have learned to stay calm through all that i went through. Hopefully y’all will not have to experience anything similar to arrive at your peaceful place for this new year and thereafter.

I want to pay special attention, of course to my Goddess, Nikki Ashton. The Goddess that i have faithfully and loyally, in my opinion at least,for what’s now going on 9 years. An eternity in terms of the life of many of the Domme/sissysubblie relationships i have seen. Really happy to be serving Her. So, of course, i want to wish Her a safe and prosperous New Year! As always we all make resolution for the new year, so my first one is to make sure that i do my best to serve Goddess Nikki. One of the reasons i love serving Her is that She really tries to make my submission meaningful, and necessary. So when i’m doing something there is some reason for it, etc. Right now i am caged and even plugged. But at Christmas She gave me a new toy, as you already know if you’re keeping up with my blog. So at New Year’s She is taking out the plug and letting me experience my toy. But as always i must be dressed appropriately for th occasion. So i got all dressed for New Year’s Eve, as i already posted. But by the end of the evening,  i was stripping off my dress in anticipation. As you can see i also had  nice matching holiday camp set on to impress my date. Not sure if you have noticed my matching earrings and necklace that i’ve been wearing.

It was fun to get dressed up for the holiday. Every girl loves to get really dressed at least once in awhile. To feel completely feminine. Especially when my Goddess wishes it.

So here i am in anticipation of the big event. It is always a special feeling, as a women once told me, when clothes start coming off and the deal is sealed. And that’s just how i felt as i sat here posing for y’all and thinking about what was to come after all this time plugged.

my hole, as anyone who knows me knows, has been all stretched out, between Goddess N’s constant plugging and prodding of me and Nitrilla’s evil stretching of me. So my date should feel real good going up me, all to the amusement of Goddess Nikki.

found myself posing for some sexy pics for my Goddess. i especially like showing off my pretty feet and long legs. And after posing and shooting some pics that i will eventually post on my web, i needed to get personal with my date. Licking and sucking this big cock. So why others are allowed to have sex, or at least have an orgasm, i am continuing to be caged. And over the years my poor little woman stick has been trained, not only that it is not allowed to cum in a normal fashion, but that it can cum, while still caged and soft, to cum through anal stimulation.  Just like any other woman, i am harping to have a big night sexually with my new partner.

OOOH it felt so good going up. i once heard a real girl describe sex in that way, and i agree. This sissy slut could feel each and every nodule pushing in–and pulling out–of me. The feel is similar to that of my plugs as they “pop” in me. It gotten to the point that after a day or two without, i crave this sensation. i absolutely thrive on its pleasurable effects. It just feels so good and i have Goddess Nikki and Her training of me to thank for what i have become. In the meantime, i have a great night fucking and sucking my new partner. Perhaps i will show some of it at my tumblr spot. It would be nice, however, if someone, particularly a TS Girl, would contact my Goddess about using me this new year. i need to be fucked and i would love to suck right cock as well. Happy New Year to all!

TweetIt’s new years’s Eve and everyone is getting ready for the new year by celebrating. A lot of people go to parties and other New Year’s Eve events. Some have a romantic evening. Sissies, especially submissive ones do not get to do those type of things. Rather, we find other ways to celebrate the New Year. In my case, Goddess Nikki found me a date of sorts for he evening. The kind of date only someone like me can appreciate. So i’m getting all dressed up for the evening.

So i got out my formal wear. A long sequined evening gown. Something that really covers all of me. Some shoes to match. And i’m looking good for the evening. Can’t wait!

TweetPicked up my Gifts from Goddess Nikki and this morning i get to open them. i am so excited. Here i am with the gifts out of the mailing box and first set them out in front of me.

i couldn’t imagine what Goddess N had sent and i kind of hesitated at first looking the pretty wrapped packages trying to get a clue as to what was in them.  And also to appreciate that Goddess had thought me worthy to receive them. 

It was really fun opening each one of Her gifts. See what She wanted me to have. As usual i received appropriate sissy type gifts. Make up, a fully pallet of facial make up with some really long sexy false eyelashes, and great nail polishes and nail art. A wig that will look great on Her sissy. Things that a sissy would appreciate. Things that Goddess N will like to see me wearing.

i saved the biggest gift, the one i was least sure of, for last. Had a feeling it would be the best, and as i opened it, i was definitely not disappointed. At right i am opening and just beeping into the package, and i was pretty sure, after a peek, what it was.

 And it was better than anticipated. It is a massive 13 inch toy. This thing looks awesome. It long, its got some girth. And it has a series of ribbed knobs that are going to feel fantastic going in and out. i would have used it right away if i wasn’t plugged and needed permission to remove the plug first.